Hari Puisi dan Pencarian Makna

“aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana;
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana;
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada”


― Sapardi Djoko Damono

Nelongso banget yha, puisi Bapak Sapardi yang satu ini
Gimana coba caranya mencintai dengan sederhana?
Pasrah?
Diam?
Hmm...
Sejujurnya ini salah satu puisi yang ku suka banget dari sejak pertama kali baca dulu di sekolah
Dulu, pas baca puisi ini, berasa ada rasa ngilu di dada, sedih, tapi kagum

Tapi kenapa ya sekarang ngerasanya nelongso abis kalo baca puisi ini
Nelongso dalam artian ga terima


Is it wrong to love passionately?
Why simple if you can make it more?

Apa ga ada cara lain buat bisa mencintai dengan sederhana?
Bapak bahagia mencintai dengan cara begitu, Pak?

Ah, mungkin aku yang salah
Mungkin maksud mencintai itu bukan mencari kebahagiaan
Tapi dengan mencintai maka kamu bahagia
(emang ngomong doang mah gampang ya)


By whichever means, to love is supposed to make you happy
If it's not, then maybe you need to re-think about it
Is it love? Really?

Huft, why so complicated



Anyway, selamat hari puisi nasional~

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Viewpoint

I did expect that
What?
Nothing
So what is it that you expect?
I expect nothing
-_-
I said I expect nothing. Is it not clear enough?
So what's the need to expect then?
That's the point. I expect nothing, but then I realized that expecting nothing is also upsetting. So what do you thing is better? Expecting something or nothing?
What are you talking about?
I am talking about expectation, please be focus
I am totally awake and focus now. It's you who are wondering around right now
I am asking you which one is better: expecting something or not at all
You said you expect nothing but then it's upsetting. Then it means that you do expect something. It's just that you TRY not to expect anything. Which is, I personally think, failed
-__-
Well, sorry, maybe I'm just too tired. Or maybe that premenstrual symptoms, you know those things with women
So you need more serotonin right now? That's what it is?
Why are you so mean?
I am not. I am asking you, do you need more serotonin?
Is it something that you can get at a nearby drugstore? -_-
Go out. Do some exercise
I'm born to be lazy
Jeez. Go to hell, then. No, no, I mean, go eat something
Will it give you more serotonin?
No, it will make you full, and then sleepy, and then you go to bed early, and tomorrow you will be happy again. That's it
Hmm, what a very nice advice -_-
Of course, I know everything. Trust me
:p
Go, girl :) You need some rest
:3 Love you
Yes, yes, I know you love yourself -_-
Annyeong, hahahaa

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the Road not Taken

If you ever be given the ability to turn back time or to see the future, which one you will choose?



Hmm, both sounds so tempting, huh?

To go back means that you can change whatever things you regret
Whatever things you want to change

But what if, what if even if you go back and you change something, it won't turn out as what you expect?
Are you sure that there were only two paths to choose?
But isn't life is like the web of paths?
How many times will you go back to make it as what you wish for?


To go to the future means that you can see what you will be and what will happen next in your life
It's basically the same as to go back
You can make experiments in what you need to change in order to alter your future as what you want

But are you sure that changing the path will help you in reaching your selected end?
How certain are you that the result will make you satisfied?


Hmm
There are high uncertainties in both options
What if (but I'm quite sure of this) changing your past or your future will also change others', (un)intentionally?
Are you going to be responsible for the changing life of all these people?

What if, changing it will end up making it worse? or making it more complicated?
What if, changing it gives you more regret?
What if, you end up wasting your time in your experiment and falling deeper in your disappointment?
What if, whatever you do, there is only one end, the unseen end?
But there is indeed only one end, tho



That's why, I will use the right to stay
I have the privilege of choosing my path in my present time, right?

Then I choose to turn down the offer
Not because I have no regret, or that I want nothing in my future
I have a lot for both

It's just because life is already complicated enough without adding some extra variables
Would like to be grateful for everything I have for now, while try to do my very best in deciding my path for tomorrow


To do something for the unpredictable yet exciting future
That's the art of living, in my definition



“Whichever path you choose, there are always lingering thoughts of the road not taken.
That’s why there are no choices without regrets and no one right answer to life.
The right answer to life is to believe that you don’t regret your past choices and live on.”
- Samchunpo, in Reply 1994

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