Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Kangen Itu Kayak Belut

Kenapa ya, pikiran kita kadang suka ga bisa diatur buat mikirin hal yang mestinya dipikirin aja
Kenapa ketika kita ga mau mikirin sesuatu, malah kadang jadi kepikiran terus
Kenapa pikiran-pikiran yang bikin sedih itu gampang banget nyelip
Licin, kayak belut


Apalagi kalo kita berusaha keras buat ga mikirin
Malah jadi kepikiran
Berusaha keras buat ga kangen
Malah jadi kangen banget
(eh, ga nyambung ya?)


Lebih sedih mana sih:
1. kangen sama orang, disampein ke orangnya, tapi no response
2. kangen sama orang, tapi ga bisa bilang
3. kangen sama orang, but ... nothing will change even if you say so, so what's the need to say it


Hmmm
Mungkin bukan kangen
Mungkin cuma kepikiran aja (bedanya apa?)
Mungkin nanti ga bakal kepikiran lagi (kemarin2 juga mikir gitu)
Mungkin mesti sok sibuk sama kerjaan (masih kurang, kerjaannya? mo ditambahin?)
Mungkin mesti aktif fangirling lagi (emang pernah nonaktif?)

Ih, naon sih, sinis amat reaksinya
Ga tau apa orang lagi sedih
Heu


Mungkin bener kata Pak Haruki Murakami




Mungkin harus belajar menikmati hidup apa adanya
Sepi itu bukan berarti harus sedih
Tapi mikir doang mah gampang
Prakteknya selalu gagal
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Monday, October 23, 2017

Just Bring Me Back Home




One year ago
It was around this time
I thought that autumn was the warmest season
Why?
Maybe because my heart beat so fast just by sitting on the bus


But it's not anymore
Autumn is just a cold season
With the cold wind
And the cold rain
Everything is cold


Few months ago
I thought spring is the most beautiful season
But not anymore

I don't love tulip
Nor the cherry flower
Not anymore


Just bring me to the place where there is no autumn nor spring
Bring me to the place where I will no longer feel cold and shivering
Bring me to the place where there is no false hope
To the place where people don't break promises easily
Just bring me back home


But I still trapped in this cold autumn
Wondering how to avoid the winter
For I could feel no warmth left in my soul
But I refuse to stop now
Because giving up is not a choice



It's not right to give up, just because it is not easy.
- Bae Dong Moon
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