The Benefits of Heartbreak

Epik High Featuring: Lee Suhyun Produced by: Tablo Album: We've Done Something Wonderful The traffic lights are blinking And the autumn leaves are rolling on the ground They do their job But why am I like this? The nights are still bright without you And autumn, too, will turn into spring But why am I like this? What do I live for? Again, had quite a bit to do today Washing the dishes, cleaning...

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Pembenaran Diri

Masih kepikiran Dua malam lalu, mungkin sekitar pukul setengah 8 malam, lepas pulang dari kantor Biasanya pergi pulang naik tram, tapi Jumat malam kemarin aku memutuskan jalan kaki Sambil menikmati suasana romantis di sepanjang Sungai Garonne Tak jauh dari pintu utama gedung apartemen, langkahku...

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Fatamorgana

Susah ya Kalo disaat-saat kayak gini, pengennya ada orang yang bisa baca pikiran Yang bisa ngerti tanpa perlu nanya Yang cukup dengan 'hadir', either physically or not Tapi bisa ngasih kehangatan Pengen cerita tapi gimana Ga cerita juga berasa digerogoti sendiri Tapi ga tau juga mesti cerita ke siapa Ah,...

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Kangen Itu Kayak Belut

Kenapa ya, pikiran kita kadang suka ga bisa diatur buat mikirin hal yang mestinya dipikirin aja Kenapa ketika kita ga mau mikirin sesuatu, malah kadang jadi kepikiran terus Kenapa pikiran-pikiran yang bikin sedih itu gampang banget nyelip Licin, kayak belut Apalagi kalo kita berusaha keras buat ga...

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Just Bring Me Back Home

One year ago It was around this time I thought that autumn was the warmest season Why? Maybe because my heart beat so fast just by sitting on the bus But it's not anymore Autumn is just a cold season With the cold wind And the cold rain Everything is cold Few months ago I thought spring is the...

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Sesederhana Sebuah Pelukan

Siang tadi, setelah sampai detik terakhir galau mo ke kampus atau ga, akhirnya ku berangkat juga ke kampus Beberapa hari ini berasa ga punya tujuan hidup Ga punya motivasi buat ngapa-ngapain Sampai sekarang belom mulai ngerjain internship juga Padahal banyak banget yang mesti dipelajari *menghela nafas* Tadinya...

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Senja di Geneva (agak lebay memang)

"As I walk to the end of the line I wonder if I should look back To all of the things that were said and done I think we should talk it over Then I noticed the sign on your back It boldly says try to look away I go on pretending I'll be ok This morning it hits me hard that Still every day I think...

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Life Happened

'So - whatever happened to you?' 'Life. Life happened.' - One Day, David Nicholls And so.. here I am Reading a romance novel at Rotterdam Central I know, what a random life Accompanied by a piece of croissant Would like to have a cup of coffee but afraid that I will need toilet a couple of times later It...

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At Least I've Tried

I wonder Maybe Love is a luxury Which I don't deserve How much wealth do I have to possess To be worthy of this fancy opulence Why should everything is about money But I believe that love is not the only thing that promises happiness At least I'm trying to believe Because that's the only hope that...

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Hati dan Manusia

Looking back on the same date a few years ago, Facebook just kindly reminded me of my abandon notes. Just realised that, before writing on this blog, I was so into writing notes on my Facebook account. Hahaha Udah nyinyir dari dulu ternyata wkwk It surprised me that I am still struggling with more...

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Chocolonely

Akhir-akhir ini ga tau kenapa, I can't help but feeling so sad and down Berasa pengen nangis setiap hari Bukan berasa ding, tapi emang hampir tiap hari nangis Rasanya pengen bikin waktu berhenti, atau skip tahun depan Ga bersyukur banget ya jadi orang Makan cokelat 70% chocolonely setengah batang...

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Dirgahayu 72

“I think we’ve been through a period where too many people have been given to understand that if they have a problem, it’s the government’s job to cope with it. ‘I have a problem, I’ll get a grant.’ ‘I’m homeless, the government must house me.’ They’re casting their problem on society. And, you know,...

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Standard Brain Deviation

I think I'm going crazy Which one is actually bigger? The space of mind or the space of heart? Or should I use volume instead of space? But using three dimensions variables doesn't seem right Now I understand how devastating being under stress and depression over a long time period is It is understandable...

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Antara Cinta dan Komitmen

Kenapa ya, seharian ini bawaannya melo yaelah, melo mulu ih Tambah dengerin lagunya Suga - So Far Away yang cover baru Huft Mungkin karena cuaca lagi mendukung banget Tadi pagi pas bangun emang dingin banget Trus tidur lagi kan abis subuh, ngantuk banget gegara kasus gaje semalem yang bikin tidur...

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One Call Away

I've been told, several times, by no other than the most independent woman I've known, other than my own sister, (how many times have I said this already?) that I'm a hopeless romantic. I think maybe it's because I showed my honest expression that I couldn't show to anybody (I know this is not enough...

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Why do you feel lonely?

Why do people feel lonely? Having people around you won't guarantee that you'll free of feeling alone There are 7,5 billion of people in this planet Yet it is still possible to feels like an alien among all these human Why do people feel lonely? Is it because of our greed? Of needing someone who...

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Mind Over Matter

Memang ya, Allah itu Maha segalanya Sometimes I thought that I really can feel what other people's feels I empathize a lot That I'm the type of person who deeply rely on my feelings and intuitions But feelings and intuitions are indeed not necessarily same as the actual facts duh, ngomong opo toh...

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Getting Old

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you...

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Alasan

"Aku mencintaimu karena Allah." Sampe sekarang kalo baca kalimat ini (belum, belum.., belum pernah dengar langsung), rasanya gimanaa gitu Yang gimana sih rasanya cinta karena Allah? Kerna cinta, trus jadi lebih rajin ibadah? Kenapa? Mesti kerna ada maunya Ya ga gitu juga sih Mungkin maksudnya cinta...

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Hari Puisi dan Pencarian Makna

“aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana; dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana; dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada” ― Sapardi Djoko Damono Nelongso banget yha, puisi...

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Viewpoint

I did expect that What? Nothing So what is it that you expect? I expect nothing -_- I said I expect nothing. Is it not clear enough? So what's the need to expect then? That's the point. I expect nothing, but then I realized that expecting nothing is also upsetting. So what do you thing is better?...

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the Road not Taken

If you ever be given the ability to turn back time or to see the future, which one you will choose? Hmm, both sounds so tempting, huh? To go back means that you can change whatever things you regret Whatever things you want to change But what if, what if even if you go back and you change something,...

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I Wish for a Happy Ending :)

"I think I'm in love." "WHAT??" "Hahahaha, but I'm not sure" Well, to wake up in the morning and find a new message on your phone and the great news in it Speechless Not sure exactly how to react, tbh I'm honestly, sincerely, wholeheartedly, happy to hear that :) Though there were so many things...

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Spring Day

"How much longing has to fall like snow For the spring days to come?" - Kim Namjoon Hei, it's the new MV from BTS! Spring Day :) Here is the link if you want to see the lyric (hangul + romanization + english) with the line of each member Actually, this is the extended version of Wings album, with...

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Let Me Sail on the White Ocean

Let me sail on the white ocean Rolling deep under the blue sky For the land is reddish instead of brown Leaves are grey without any shades of green Let me sail on the white ocean Be lost with the tears and sorrow of the mother Of life Surrounded by the irrefutable truth and power Let me sail on...

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Demi Masa

Setahun Tepatnya setahun 4 hari Pengen bilang ga kerasa waktu berlalu cepat banget Tapi kayaknya ga bener juga Sebenernya waktu itu gimana sih Kenapa kita sering banget ngerasain waktu yang 'beda' dibanding orang lain Ga usah dibandingin ke orang lain deh, sesama diri sendiri aja, bisa beda kadang Ya...

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Memories, Park Kyung feat. Yun Hyeonsang

Help I cannot stop listening to this song Aaaaaaa 어떻게... This is the 5th song of Park Kyung's first solo mini album, Notebook :" The first time I listen to it, I fell in love I'm not the type to fall in love at first sight tho But now I would like to admit it 인정! Especially Yun Hyeonsang part, the melody, the music Hmm.. Even the fact that all those songs were produced, written and composed by him...

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Sirik - Salah Satu Jalan Menuju Roma

Ini ibuke sama bapake yang duduk di depan dari tadi mesra-mesraan wae Hmm Kayak orang 'pacaran' Si bapak dari tadi di elus-elus kepalanya Biar apa? Biar bobo? Udah mo nyampe perasaan setengah jam lagi Pake nidurin kepala segala di dada ibuke Agak maksa sih di bis yg space nya pas2an gini Sabar sih, bentar lagi juga nyampe Heu Bapake udah mulai beruban Tapi uban bukan indikator umur Bisa jadi ibuke...

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Winter dan Hati #2

Ketinggalan kereta, haha Ya sudah, tinggal nunggu 8 menit lagi ga bakal kenapa-kenapa Abisnya daripada beneran ninggalin 2 ibu tadi Pasti bakal kepikiran sepanjang perjalanan What if .. What if ... Di kepala berasa tumbuh ranting-ranting skenario dari setiap kemungkinan yang bisa terjadi detik, menit,...

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Winter dan Hati

Ga nyambung ya fotonya Di londo ga ada dunkin donat Kepengen Setelah aku perhatiin, orang spanyol ternyata agak mirip ya sama orang Indonesia Beberapa hari ini bahkan suka kayak salah denger gitu, kirain ada orang indo ngomong eh ternyata bahasa spanyol Atau itu cuma efek tidur di bis? Ga nyambung...

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