Hari Puisi dan Pencarian Makna

“aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana;
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana;
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada”


― Sapardi Djoko Damono

Nelongso banget yha, puisi Bapak Sapardi yang satu ini
Gimana coba caranya mencintai dengan sederhana?
Pasrah?
Diam?
Hmm...
Sejujurnya ini salah satu puisi yang ku suka banget dari sejak pertama kali baca dulu di sekolah
Dulu, pas baca puisi ini, berasa ada rasa ngilu di dada, sedih, tapi kagum

Tapi kenapa ya sekarang ngerasanya nelongso abis kalo baca puisi ini
Nelongso dalam artian ga terima


Is it wrong to love passionately?
Why simple if you can make it more?

Apa ga ada cara lain buat bisa mencintai dengan sederhana?
Bapak bahagia mencintai dengan cara begitu, Pak?

Ah, mungkin aku yang salah
Mungkin maksud mencintai itu bukan mencari kebahagiaan
Tapi dengan mencintai maka kamu bahagia
(emang ngomong doang mah gampang ya)


By whichever means, to love is supposed to make you happy
If it's not, then maybe you need to re-think about it
Is it love? Really?

Huft, why so complicated



Anyway, selamat hari puisi nasional~

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Viewpoint

I did expect that
What?
Nothing
So what is it that you expect?
I expect nothing
-_-
I said I expect nothing. Is it not clear enough?
So what's the need to expect then?
That's the point. I expect nothing, but then I realized that expecting nothing is also upsetting. So what do you thing is better? Expecting something or nothing?
What are you talking about?
I am talking about expectation, please be focus
I am totally awake and focus now. It's you who are wondering around right now
I am asking you which one is better: expecting something or not at all
You said you expect nothing but then it's upsetting. Then it means that you do expect something. It's just that you TRY not to expect anything. Which is, I personally think, failed
-__-
Well, sorry, maybe I'm just too tired. Or maybe that premenstrual symptoms, you know those things with women
So you need more serotonin right now? That's what it is?
Why are you so mean?
I am not. I am asking you, do you need more serotonin?
Is it something that you can get at a nearby drugstore? -_-
Go out. Do some exercise
I'm born to be lazy
Jeez. Go to hell, then. No, no, I mean, go eat something
Will it give you more serotonin?
No, it will make you full, and then sleepy, and then you go to bed early, and tomorrow you will be happy again. That's it
Hmm, what a very nice advice -_-
Of course, I know everything. Trust me
:p
Go, girl :) You need some rest
:3 Love you
Yes, yes, I know you love yourself -_-
Annyeong, hahahaa

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the Road not Taken

If you ever be given the ability to turn back time or to see the future, which one you will choose?



Hmm, both sounds so tempting, huh?

To go back means that you can change whatever things you regret
Whatever things you want to change

But what if, what if even if you go back and you change something, it won't turn out as what you expect?
Are you sure that there were only two paths to choose?
But isn't life is like the web of paths?
How many times will you go back to make it as what you wish for?


To go to the future means that you can see what you will be and what will happen next in your life
It's basically the same as to go back
You can make experiments in what you need to change in order to alter your future as what you want

But are you sure that changing the path will help you in reaching your selected end?
How certain are you that the result will make you satisfied?


Hmm
There are high uncertainties in both options
What if (but I'm quite sure of this) changing your past or your future will also change others', (un)intentionally?
Are you going to be responsible for the changing life of all these people?

What if, changing it will end up making it worse? or making it more complicated?
What if, changing it gives you more regret?
What if, you end up wasting your time in your experiment and falling deeper in your disappointment?
What if, whatever you do, there is only one end, the unseen end?
But there is indeed only one end, tho



That's why, I will use the right to stay
I have the privilege of choosing my path in my present time, right?

Then I choose to turn down the offer
Not because I have no regret, or that I want nothing in my future
I have a lot for both

It's just because life is already complicated enough without adding some extra variables
Would like to be grateful for everything I have for now, while try to do my very best in deciding my path for tomorrow


To do something for the unpredictable yet exciting future
That's the art of living, in my definition



“Whichever path you choose, there are always lingering thoughts of the road not taken.
That’s why there are no choices without regrets and no one right answer to life.
The right answer to life is to believe that you don’t regret your past choices and live on.”
- Samchunpo, in Reply 1994

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I Wish for a Happy Ending :)

"I think I'm in love."
"WHAT??"
"Hahahaha, but I'm not sure"



Well, to wake up in the morning and find a new message on your phone and the great news in it
Speechless
Not sure exactly how to react, tbh
I'm honestly, sincerely, wholeheartedly, happy to hear that :)

Though there were so many things I want to ask
So many things were left unsaid
But sometimes, some questions are meant to be in your head only
Sometimes, having no answer is the best way to live your life

Or, could it be because I can understand without asking it out loud?
Could it be that I already found the answer somewhere in the corner of my head and my heart?
That I don't feel like it is necessary anymore, whatever the result will be
Is this what they called 'grown-up things'?
Hmm


"It's been so long that I don't get to feel this kind of thing. That I'm not even sure how to make myself sure about it."
"Well, I'm not any better than you in this case, absolutely, haha."
"I just scared that I translated the signal in a wrong way. What if it's just on my part? Why is it so hard being a girl (you mean, woman? haha) that I don't have the power to make sure of everything."
"Hahahaha. Then just let it be. Enjoy this rare yet exciting moment in your life. You said that it's been so long that you don't feel this way. Then live it. You can choose to wait and live it to the fullest :)"


What else?
Do you think there is a better way to cope with this thing?
Maybe some straightforward girl will just say it out loud. Whatever it is in her mind
And I will always be so envious of this kind of girl
How do you even have the energy to do that?


Anyway, I personally think that everyone knows how to react best, their own way
It's your life, and you are the master of your mind and your heart


But the thing is, it's not only about advice
It's about sharing
About how to make your excitement grow by sharing it with your closest
About how to share the weight it contains with other people
This extraordinary thing about sharing
Sharing happiness will make it bigger, yet sharing your sadness will make it disappear
Magic, eh? :)


I knew at that moment, that when you like someone, you have eyes for her on the sides and the back of your head. And that if you don’t knock, there will be no answer. Standing in place will not get you what you want
-Yoon Jae, in Reply 1984


I wish upon a star for a happy ending :)
See you in my next post
Annyeong!
XOXO

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Spring Day

"How much longing has to fall like snow
For the spring days to come?"
- Kim Namjoon


Hei, it's the new MV from BTS!
Spring Day :)

Here is the link if you want to see the lyric (hangul + romanization + english) with the line of each member

Actually, this is the extended version of Wings album, with 4 new tracks:
Spring Day
Not Today
Outro : Wings
A Supplementary Story : You Never Walk Alone


First, I would like to say thank you to Lumpens and all the music video credits for such an artsy mv :)
I personally think that this is the best mv of BTS so far
Too beautiful to handle hehe

And the song itself is just too mesmerising
I play this song whenever I need to bike from my home to the college or the other way around
And suddenly my life feels like a music video, haha
And everything feels more beautiful, happier but also sad
Why did Namjoon and Yoongi have to put sad lyrics in a beautiful melody, heu
But maybe that's why the song turned out great :D
Even my most favourite parts of the song are Namjoon and Yoongi's part, uri rapper lines
And also the melody of this part (start at 2:19)

Past the end of this cold winter
Until the spring comes again
Until the flowers bloom again
Stay there a little longer
Stay there

Oh, if you want to see Namjoon's personal review of the new songs, you can see it here
The long version of the review can be seen here, but you need to subscribe the channel+ haha


Namjoon said that the song is about how he could not meet up with his old friends so often now
The way he demonstrate the melody tho, why so cute haha
Oh, and by the way, I love the first part of the song so much!
It's just too mind blowing to see Namjoon sing (and that poker face). Haha
Everyone knew that he always want to sing and he practised a lot! haha
You can feel it from his new single that he uploaded to SoundCloud, Always
Or maybe he is experimenting a new way of 'rap' haha
Kalo kata Noya & Andhani, mereka udah kebayang gimana Namjoon ga kontrol dagu sama bibir pas nanyi bagian 'always' wkwk





















Bagus yaa tone warnanyaaa, suka deh

Oiya, btw sekarang ku lagi suka banget lagunya Akdong Musician yang Last Goodbye dari album terakhir mereka, Winter
Sama Time and Fallen Leaves, yang ini album lama sih, tapi entah kenapa ku baru ngeh akhir-akhir ini kalo lagunya baguus
Mungkin lagi sesuai sama mood aja kali ya
Hmm

Well then, see you on my next post!
Annyeong!

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